1st the good news … the David Gray tickets came yesterday in the mail. I’m really looking forward to this concert!

From 30Rock last night:
Jack: “What have children ever done for us?”

Kenneth: “Well, they make our shoes and wallets.”

ETA at night: I’m a chicken afraid to face the consequences.

I didn’t get on the treadmill either.

I’ll chalk it up to a rest day and start fresh tomorrow morning.

Visit to the endo was positive. Blood pressure is 112/60 … a huge improvement.

He assured me that my hair will grow back within the year. Also, he agreed that my decreased dosage requirement for my Synthroid is due to my weight loss. I asked him if my fat had any influence on having thyroid cancer and he assured me that this type of cancer isn’t affected by fat like other cancers.

My visit to the radiology oncologist was interesting. The reason that I’m being sent for the PET scan is because my post-radiation body scans and my post-radiation bloodwork results are at odds with each other. My body scans are negative for cancer but my bloodwork is elevated in proteins and my body keeps producing nodules. The Dr. says my body is “misbehaving”. lol Not everyone is sent for the PET scan (boo) … just exceptional cases (me!) as the test is very expensive … $2,500. It will be covered by OHIP. (YAY, Canadian healthcare!) I will also be a part of a study following 2000 people. (voluntary) It isn’t unheard of to have these results but it isn’t normal either and that’s why the team taking care of me is taking the precaution of having this test done. If the PET scan shows I’m negative for cancer, it could just be that my body has elevated levels of these proteins. If it’s positive, then of course I’ll need further treatment. Fingers crossed for *negative* results. He told me that I will have to be monitored for the rest of my life. I hope it’s a long one.

I’m concerned about this news but I have to keep worry at a distance as it doesn’t help anything. It could very well be nothing. If it is something, I know I can deal with it, but really … enough already.

This is more of a mental game than a physical one. Then again, it ALL is, isn’t it?

“When we take control of our mental state by deliberately choosing our thoughts and attitudes, we can alter the meaning we associate to the experiences we have and results we see in our life.” ~~ Clayton J. Moore

The Food:

1st meal ~~ egg whites + spinach + mushrooms + green onions + pear + coffee with almond milk

««« tasted better than it looks

2nd meal ~~ 1 cup almond milk + 1 scoop protein powder + banana

3rd meal ~~ 1 hard boiled egg + 1/3 cup chickpeas + romaine + red onion + tomatoes + baby cuke + hot peppers + 2 T Greek dressing

4th meal ~~ hummus + sweet pepper strips (100 calorie packs of hummus … perfect!)

5th meal ~~ peanuts & chocolate … yes, again. I’m eating my fear and not listening to my own advice. (not perfect!)

TGIF!

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